This is the story of how I awakened.

You will meet many people who say they have spiritually awakened. I will not contest anyone’s experience. I can only speak from my own, and from what awakening revealed to me directly.

For me, spiritual awakening is the moment a person remembers their soul identity, which is the same as their spiritual identity. This identity is eternal, and as a soul we are a division of nature. Nature is eternal, therefore we are a division of eternity. This division is an archetype, a spiritual model, a precise expression of the sacred pattern we belong to.

Our soul incarnates into matter to fulfill a purpose. Before birth, the soul creates a contract and an agenda. It knows the life purpose it must complete. But the moment we are born, that agenda is interrupted. Parents, family, culture, and society all have their own agenda for us, one rooted not in purpose but in survival.

As children, we are given roles that were never meant for us. These roles are not an expression of who we are. They are expressions of what others needed from us. This is enmeshment. It creates false identities with false roles, leaving adults disconnected from their soul’s agenda and misaligned with their true nature.

When the soul cannot complete its agenda, it reincarnates and tries again. This cycle can take lifetimes, especially in civilizations where spiritual guidance has been replaced by organized religion. The ancient understanding of the soul’s identity was lost. The death and rebirth ritual, the rite of passage that realigns a human being with their soul, was lost as well.

Historically, spirit guides existed to help children and adults shed what they were not and be reborn into who they truly are. These guides initiated the ego death process long before psychology named it. Their role was to destroy false identities so the soul could emerge. But when humanity shifted from tribal life to civilization, organized religion replaced the spiritual guide. The death ritual disappeared.

In its place came worship of deities, external authority, and the belief that spiritual identity could be received by proxy. But no deity grants power. No person grants power. We are born with power because we are born as a division of nature. We are all royalty in the original sense, each of us an expression of an eternal archetype.

My awakening made this truth undeniable.

I was raised in a white conservative Christian nationalist culture, specifically Missouri Synod Lutheranism. I was taught that spirituality meant strengthening a relationship with Jesus Christ and following a deity-driven model of morality. I learned to worship spiritual authority instead of understanding my own. I learned to develop a relationship with a deity instead of with my soul.

When Christianity failed to answer the deeper questions, I left and explored other ideologies. None of them led to awakening. My life remained split. One part focused on developing my psychic abilities, and the other focused on cultivating my medical background as a psychotherapist. The world required these parts of me to stay separate.

What I did not know was that these two abilities, divination and medicine, were meant to merge.

For four years, I used EMDR on myself, modifying it to target interpersonal enmeshment as an addiction. My goal was to repair developmental injury. I had no idea the result would be spiritual. A month after completing my final EMDR target, I awakened. All of my autobiographical memories reorganized and revealed the complete narrative of my archetype, the light bringer. This archetype appears across cultures and mythic stories.

EMDR, when targeted toward enmeshment, killed my false identity. When the false identity died, my soul identity emerged. I remembered who I am, my role, and my life purpose. My professional training and psychic abilities fused into one truth. I am a spiritual guide, and my purpose is to guide others through the same death and rebirth process.

I stepped out of the psychotherapist role because it was too small for the truth of who I am. I was not meant to remain within a system that cannot recognize soul identity, spiritual purpose, or the ancient rite of death and rebirth.

Awakening returned me to my nature, my essence. This does not mean perfection. It means clarity. It means that the path is clear for my soul to do what it came here to do.

Fulfillment is the completion of one’s life purpose. We do not need to wait until physical death to return to our soul, but we must be willing to pay the price. That price is ego death, the destruction of the false identity.

This is the process I now guide others through. I lead my clients, little by little, through the dismantling of their false self using EMDR and spiritual guidance so they can awaken, remember their soul identity, and align with the life they were meant to live.

Awakening is painful. Realignment is painful. But it is the path back to the soul and the life purpose that has waited across lifetimes to be fulfilled.